A sleepless night thought

It’s not about perfection or anything, it’s more about peace of mind. I feel good about myself when I realize what  I have, what I have achieved and how blessed I am to be in the position I hold. Most of the times I don’t realize it until I am on the highest of the highest; it’s easy to see what is going wrong in your life more than it is to realize that what you have is worth a thousands of smiles. Listening is therapy. Rationalizing is a method of meditating  to cure what we call troubles of the mind. It’s early morning and I am meditating my own troubles. Sometimes I wonder if they are really troubles or if they are just mare lists that my conscious self enjoys to come up with. Well either ways I am up. I am up because I am conscious about it all. List, troubles, anxiousness, I am not sure. But I am aware that It’s because I realized that I am blessed, I am fortunate, I am lucky and so much more. I feel like I can do allot just in this instant, just with what I gathered recently. I would give credits to my brain that is irresistible to a comfort bed in a hotel room that costs $100 and something. In a sense I am also learning; Learning that peace of mind we humans can’t buy it, can’t borrow it or can’t fake it. Peace of mind we own it with our actions, it comes after we rationalize and act upon what we perceive to be the best way of ceasing the mind-our own mind in this case