Seated back at home

    There is this weird feeling that comes along with it, I can tell you that often times when I sit back to relax I have the feeling that I must be doing something more productive than this. Life is somehow complicated specially after being in America accustomed to the fast and first world's life. I decided to join this small organization and help out with the voluntary activist job of sending our positive messages to women who sell their body for some change. I was and still am very interested and I hope I get to do something in future that relates to this idea of sex, women, society and values and in someways try to get the positive outcome from it. Just as I sit back, I also tell you that I have had my 4th session at the driving sessions I started lately as a way of putting forward my futuristic goals into practice, I feel weird about it, I feel that as expected this whole excitement is lacking a bit. Life has its own ways around I must confess. numerous times I have been faced with the feeling of disappointment rather say with the expectations not being reached. This is when i realized that growing up is all about watching out for every single thing that happens to you.  What I mean is, before adulthood we are all carefree, today I sit down and think, think and think and even though deceptions come in, there is this little bit of hope that comes along with every moment lost, that tomorrow will work out. Maybe all geniuses of this world are those that have learned to enjoy every second of their lives, and  are also those that have learned to know their real passions and go for it! Life is just difficult to live. I forgot to mention that all this note comes sideways with my love life! haaa let it not be told what I feel should have been happening to me and my partner right now but because of whatever reasons there is, nothing is going on. Should I say I am in the wrong place with him? or rather say accept what you have and keep hoping?! at this point I really don't know anything. Just as a side note: I am meeting my two beautiful

old friends for a fancy dinner at this expensive restaurant and also stay in  for the night. life is really something to admire.

Live, Learn but don’t Forget.

Often in this world we have the tendency of taking people an things for granted. Specially the people that surround us. I say that because today I got a call from life, a very urgent call that has the topic of “garanty...” Yes that's right; guaranty of people.

After getting a message on Facebook from my cousin back home on Monday, telling me that” a dear friend I had known for more than  5 years is no longer among us! He had passed away 5 months ago Gui!!” Shocking right? I didn’t know what to feel, what to say and what to think about the whole situation. The  only thing that came up in my mind was: Where was I five months ago? As a friend I feel awful...

 Have you ever asked yourself this kind of question: “what did I do today that will make me unforgettable on the eyes of my friend?” , “What if I had a limited amount of time to spend with my beloved ones, what would I do? What would I say?” That’s exactly my point today. I am here to remind you that everything in this world has a limited time. Do say “I miss You when you really do, Do say how special the person is if you really mean it.

The guaranty of life is not the one based on your future plans, but one that keeps the sparkles of love awake. A life with constant reminder that we are here in this world to take care of one another. A future exists if the present is felt. I will now ask you this: “would you rather have an image of the future and ignore the one standing right next to you?” or would you rather ignore the fixed image of the future on top of your head and just live for what there is today?

Now I am not saying that you should stop going to class or anything crazy like that. All I am saying is that on your way to class, instead of envisioning your grades and how focused you must be, pay a close attention to your fellow friend walking with you to that class. Say  hi to him/her like you mean it. Spread the sparkles of life. Remind yourself and your surrounding that we are here with a limited amount of time, so you might as well just embrace it.

Now I am here sharing my story because I want to teach everybody the power of life based on my experience. I want each and everyone of you reading my story right now to start appreciating who we have and if possible let those people in your life know how special they are.  

Realizing Something

Often you are so worried about your own feelings, tired of living and sad about the past. Yes the past, because this one indeed is the one to blame. Today I seat down once again. I am not sure what's going on, but I came to realize something. It doesn't change the fact that I get sad easily, nor the fact that I am still not done searching for my path in life. I am just thinking. I am just realizing. I am to go a long way. But see the thing  I am talking about is that sense of similarity-familiarity in life's circumstances. Today I came to realizing that someone feels exactly the same way as I do. It's not surprise, but its no longer as frightening. The feeling that I could possibly be a bi-polar sounds normal now. I am not alone, I am just alone, however there is one more person alone. Today I was also told that it's ok to feel sad. It all makes sense now. I am not saying that I am done being sad, I am not saying that I am done with my searching of happiness. All I am saying is that I was told some things that made me come to a realization. Society often tries to pass the idea that being sad or in deeps thoughts about yourself is a bad thing. Well according to who?! But why is that a bad thing?! Today I came to realizing more than ever before, that its these sad moments that give me the ability to think hard about my searching. I am not to be obsessed with them, but I am allowed to have moments like those. In fact I come to appreciate my happiness when it come. This because I know that it came after a storm of sadness. Today I came to realizing that I am "normal." I am also realizing that it takes time to be ok. I am making sure I realize other millions of things I have to, during this process of life.

What Happiness is...

I like the idea of change. You expect nothing and yet the surprises all come to test the ways in which you respond to things in this life. Who would ever think that meeting a complete stranger would provide you with the best memories ever? who would ever think that unplanned things turn out to be the best moments ever?? Well life is like that. Today I am happy. I am happy not because I won the lottery; in fact I am completely broke now. I am happy because I decided to live. I decided to listen to my desires and run after my heartbeats. I booked that flight, I traveled and met my friends, and new people and strangers and I did it all with no fears, regrets nor expectations. I just went!!
Today I wonder if I had thought of tomorrow, non of this would ever happen. We learn to deal with tomorrow when it comes. I choose to live today. That's my happiness.

Changes

Bye mum, Bye Dad and Bye my little sister. I am going to the United States Of America for four years!  This is it. I am going to chase my dreams and make them come true.

Its in my first semester as a freshmen that I am more enthusiastic about college life, I want to be part of all possible activities on campus, all sort of community services and socialize with people I initially think that they surely share something in common with me. My classes?! Oh my classes are wonderful, everything is new,  my mind is fresh from high school, and I enjoy engaging in discussions about culture because I feel like I need to show people where I come from and what I stand for as a strong international  female student.  It is all smooth, exciting, fun and incredibly the best time of my life. What I did not realize is that everyone is actually going through the same thing as I am, well for freshmen in this case. My excitement is my classmate’s excitement. International student or not, we all felt good about our first meal in the the Dinning hall, with a table full of new faces. It lasts for more than a month. Even the weather, oh they couldn’t have chosen a better season to start college, but Summer: bright and  happy.

Did I report to my family that I arrived? What did I say? How do I explain the way I like this place? In fact do I know what I want to do in terms of academics? All this questions popped  up into our heads, during the first days of college. What we don’t realize is that even though we don’t physically travel to anywhere, we are constantly changing who we are, and at the same time building up into a completely  different person. Changes occur whether we choose to or not.

Its during this second semester that I started realizing how it works. No my dreams are not happening in a snap of fingers, I have to do more than I ever thought I would. No I won’t major in Psychology anymore, I may minor in it, but I am definitely not the same person anymore. Sometimes I feel like I got it, but sometimes I feel like I know nothing at all, I feel like I don’t know what is going on and where I am going with all these classes I am taking.

 I have changed in a sense that I give priorities to my academics and personal interests. I don’t sign up for things just because I need to be out there and be heard. I am driven by my maturity and passion as a foreigner , baring in mind that I said buy to my family, telling them that I am chasing my dreams.

In the end that’s what all of us as Westminster students are doing. We are building ourselves and facing changes that we are not necessarily aware of. Changes that makes us stronger in someways, because they surely help us find our paths in this life. 

The Essence of Life

We tend to seek happiness in forms of having the perfect life. One that includes money, love and the perfect job, or if not something along those lines. Why does it see