Seated back at home

    There is this weird feeling that comes along with it, I can tell you that often times when I sit back to relax I have the feeling that I must be doing something more productive than this. Life is somehow complicated specially after being in America accustomed to the fast and first world's life. I decided to join this small organization and help out with the voluntary activist job of sending our positive messages to women who sell their body for some change. I was and still am very interested and I hope I get to do something in future that relates to this idea of sex, women, society and values and in someways try to get the positive outcome from it. Just as I sit back, I also tell you that I have had my 4th session at the driving sessions I started lately as a way of putting forward my futuristic goals into practice, I feel weird about it, I feel that as expected this whole excitement is lacking a bit. Life has its own ways around I must confess. numerous times I have been faced with the feeling of disappointment rather say with the expectations not being reached. This is when i realized that growing up is all about watching out for every single thing that happens to you.  What I mean is, before adulthood we are all carefree, today I sit down and think, think and think and even though deceptions come in, there is this little bit of hope that comes along with every moment lost, that tomorrow will work out. Maybe all geniuses of this world are those that have learned to enjoy every second of their lives, and  are also those that have learned to know their real passions and go for it! Life is just difficult to live. I forgot to mention that all this note comes sideways with my love life! haaa let it not be told what I feel should have been happening to me and my partner right now but because of whatever reasons there is, nothing is going on. Should I say I am in the wrong place with him? or rather say accept what you have and keep hoping?! at this point I really don't know anything. Just as a side note: I am meeting my two beautiful

old friends for a fancy dinner at this expensive restaurant and also stay in  for the night. life is really something to admire.